the new

Always thought that rivers were nice to look at, but never really saw myself spending a lot of time actually in one. Well I am now no longer a Murray River virgin..and I've got the bug. Immersing yourself in a flowing dark body of water is quite a liberating experience. Throw caution to the wind and dive in..sure there is a metaphor for life in there. Anyway, its great to be open to new things, rather than just pigeon holing ourselves. I love the ocean and it is a different sensation being tossed among the waves. But when in Rome..So besides the references to water, embracing the new brings in things that we could have never predicted. Coming up to Christmas and the New Year makes us re evaluate or take stock of our lives so far. So in that vein, put on your curiosity  cap and go explore the world around you. And most importantly, enjoy the experience!

'It's my party'

I am one of those people who shares their birthday with the silly season. I kinda love it, as Christmas is one of my favourite holidays..a white Christmas in New York is definitely on the wish list. However, as I was planning my birthday thing this year - and I'm having 2 :), I found that I began censoring myself. The cheeky inner critic telling me things like I was 'too old' or 'too greedy'. The thing is, conditioning is a nasty thing - like diet shakes. We need to see it for what it truly is - unnecessary noise. Acting on impulse and having fun is what life is all about - so here's to embracing the silly season!

so many tears i cried..

This was part of the chorus in one of rock God Lenny Kravitz' beautiful tunes. As today was singing day, I have a whole bunch of different songs in my head. This one in particular strikes a chord with me however as he is really putting himself out there. Because, really, what's the point in not doing that. Note to self there, take my own sage advice :) At the moment, I'm getting stupidly excited about my weekend in Sydney. Primarily for reiki training. But also a touch of swimming, shopping and ballet viewing thrown in. I love visiting my old home, as I get a chance to check in, so to speak. This visit will prove particularly poignant, as I say a real goodbye to an old flame - which was maybe the subconscious reason for my headline. It is indeed bittersweet that the passing of times brings with it the inevitability of change.I am not the same person, cue the farewell to old flames. No regrets about having gone there and now going away from that. The necessary tears, chocolate and retail therapy trips brought me to where I am now.  As for the putting myself out there, for me that means standing strong enough to hold up my dreams on a daily basis - as there are many and my wish list for life keeps growing. Part of the excitement for me in Sydney is seeing the big Christmas tree - it is truly magical and serves as a reminder of my mini me. So as the clock starts to signal time to sleep, may your dreams be merry, joyful and magical. Ps in case you were wondering, the name of the song is 'It ain't over till it's over'.

true glamour never dies...

That's the catch phrase on the disturbing, but amazing 'Grey Gardens'. Thanks to a spider bite, I had an excuse to lie on the couch and watch this doco. Drew Barrymore did indeed give a wow performance. It was quite shocking what happened to these two throughout the course of the film. As a mother and a daughter, they became co - dependent on each other, everything else going out the window.  Quite literally, the house 'Grey Gardens' that became their world fell to pieces around them. I'd always been really fascinated by old places, but this one had disturbing added in to the mix. I at times felt nauseated by looking at the state that their house had got into. Such a far cry from the high society life that her husband had provided her with initially. Which left me feeling really disapointed..I felt like screaming at her at times, to tell her to do something for herself.  While the knight in white shining armour was off bread winning, she was sun bathing and not really much else. Anyway, you know what's coming next..self-sufficiency, not relying on a man etc. But really, we were all put on this earth to do something and we all can do many things. So I guess what became disturbing about watching this was the reminder that it gave me. It is comforting to all of us to be looked after, but in the end she couldn't look after herself and leeched off her daughter instead. Many of us rely on others from time to time, which is beautiful , but its the making someone else responsible for our wellbeing that I have problems with. Anyway, that is probably enough of a rant for a Sunday :) Needless to say, I did find the film confronting but maybe in a bit of a way comforting. Every day we have the chance to nurture ourselves. Every day is in many ways a clean slate, where we can learn from our mistakes. And any day we can choose to walk away to find a different path. That's where I think true glamour lies...